This is Imogen Heap. She is my favorite artist and I never ever get sick of her music. I could listen to it all the time. If you haven't heard of her I strongly suggest you listen to some of her music. You may not like it, that's fine, but I LOVE it.

I need your help. Sigh... I'm not right. I'm crabby, angry, resentful, impatient, frustrated, anxious, and sad. To sum it up I've been feeling pretty stressed lately. This is normal but it's not normal for me to lay in bed until 3 am thinking of how awful it is to have people needing me and my help. I usually love helping people out! When I started being angry at my dear husband for needing love from me I realized something is not right. Well, to be honest, I think it's my own fault. Stress is normal, life is crazy and we are all bound to feel overwhelmed. However, usually there is something better in my life to help lift me above the stresses and I've left it behind in the dirt. The Gospel. I have not been wanting to go to church for the past couple months. Absolutely NO desire. I was already forcing myself to go for a few months before that and I just got tired of going, so I stopped. For a few weeks it was OK. It felt good to sleep in and wake up with Shay in bed with me. I justified, "It's the only day of the week we have together. The other days we are working." Well, now a little down the road I'm depressed and unable to handle things with a positive attitude. SO! It stops today. Church going resumes again on Sunday and a better attitude begins now. I really want to be a happy Daughter of God. With that comes a happy wife, sister, daughter of earthly parents, friend, hairstylist, and hopefully someday mother. I want to be someone that people look up to for my ability to rise above and be proud of who I am. So... My plea for your help comes in at this point. Please help me. Please pray for me to have the strength and motivation to get out of bed and GO to church. Pray that I may be proud of myself and be the kind, loving, patient person I want to be. I know Heavenly Father loves me, I know he supports me and I know he knows me. I know I can overcome my human nature and I know I am beautiful in many people's eyes. Thank you for all loving me and for your support. I'll pray for you in return. I love you many times over!!!! Heart, Dest