This is Imogen Heap. She is my favorite artist and I never ever get sick of her music. I could listen to it all the time. If you haven't heard of her I strongly suggest you listen to some of her music. You may not like it, that's fine, but I LOVE it.

I need your help. Sigh... I'm not right. I'm crabby, angry, resentful, impatient, frustrated, anxious, and sad. To sum it up I've been feeling pretty stressed lately. This is normal but it's not normal for me to lay in bed until 3 am thinking of how awful it is to have people needing me and my help. I usually love helping people out! When I started being angry at my dear husband for needing love from me I realized something is not right. Well, to be honest, I think it's my own fault. Stress is normal, life is crazy and we are all bound to feel overwhelmed. However, usually there is something better in my life to help lift me above the stresses and I've left it behind in the dirt. The Gospel. I have not been wanting to go to church for the past couple months. Absolutely NO desire. I was already forcing myself to go for a few months before that and I just got tired of going, so I stopped. For a few weeks it was OK. It felt good to sleep in and wake up with Shay in bed with me. I justified, "It's the only day of the week we have together. The other days we are working." Well, now a little down the road I'm depressed and unable to handle things with a positive attitude. SO! It stops today. Church going resumes again on Sunday and a better attitude begins now. I really want to be a happy Daughter of God. With that comes a happy wife, sister, daughter of earthly parents, friend, hairstylist, and hopefully someday mother. I want to be someone that people look up to for my ability to rise above and be proud of who I am. So... My plea for your help comes in at this point. Please help me. Please pray for me to have the strength and motivation to get out of bed and GO to church. Pray that I may be proud of myself and be the kind, loving, patient person I want to be. I know Heavenly Father loves me, I know he supports me and I know he knows me. I know I can overcome my human nature and I know I am beautiful in many people's eyes. Thank you for all loving me and for your support. I'll pray for you in return. I love you many times over!!!! Heart, Dest

Our Trip to MONTANA!

We went up to visit my family in Montana last week. We hadn't visited in over 3 years and it was time to go up. Now I wish I hadn't cuz I'm missing my family SO bad. :( Luckily they are only 8 hours away and not more... These pics are of us on our way up and one of me and my mom right after we got there. I apologize in advance for not captioning all the pictures. Instead I just did a blog for each activity. It's too hard for me and I get too frustrated when I try to organize all the photos.

The first video is of these dogs that come over to my parents house everyday. They don't know who they belong to but I thought it was hilarious how the yellow dog jumps over the fence.

The second video is a big mess we made trying to put Tiggz in the car to come back to Utah. Sorry about my loud laughter.

The third video is really shaky. I was on the back of a 4-wheeler and I saw this huge beetle on Shays back and took some of the scenery.

Gross pics of the bugs on my car from the trip

Views from a little cemetary

Up the hill from my parents house is this little cemetary. The first person buried there was in 1875 and the last so far is 2008, but there are less than 50 graves.

Guns in Montana

We don't go to Montana without shooting guns. Don't worry, the one of Shay pointing the gun at the camera is a fake gun... and no one was behind the camera, he was holding it.

Sunday at my Grandparents House

My Grandparents have a beautiful house that is an official historic site in my home town. I love going over there. As they are getting older it's harder for them to get their gardens planted. These pictures are nothing compared to what I saw growing up but it is still so beautiful. Also while we were there a Squirrel was in the tree and my dog Abbey was barking at it and the squirrel was chipping at the dog. It was hilarious, Shay got some good shots of the squirrel. I love my grandparents very much. They raised me as much as my parents did and I have a special relationship with them. Love you Gramma and Grampa!!!

Tiggz and Abbey